Pain — it focuses my mind, but not on what I want it to focus on.

I want to write — freely, comfortably, truthfully — and instead I worry about the numbness in my fingertip and the pain in my wrist and forearm and shoulder. I’m so tired of this!

I hate to complain, but is stating the facts complaining? I must sound like a broken record to the people I talk to; they ask me how I am and I keep saying the same things. It’s a good day pain-wise or it’s a bad day pain-wise.

This recovery period is taking so much longer than I was prepared for. The physical therapy helps on some visits and not on others. The acupuncturist is on vacation this week. Blah blah blah.

What I really want to write about is the cool new book club that my neighbor and I started. We’re the only members!

And I will write about it, but now I have to rest my arm. If you’re reading this blog, please know that I appreciate it, and that I’m determined to work this carpal tunnel thing out. Patience is not always my strongest suit, but I’m committed to this. (And thank you Roy and Lauren for continuing to urge me to dig deep ;-).

2 Responses to "Living with pain"

  1. Debra

    August 16, 2007

    It sounds like you need a visit from a certified massage therapist!!! 😀
    FYI…. They thought I had carpal tunnel too, but the numbness/tingling in my arm and shoulder made one doctor skeptical. Turns out, I did not have carpal tunnel, I had four herniated discs in my neck that, for whatever reason, I cannot feel as pain (only pressure). But they pinched the nerve running down my arm. Physical therapy and regular chiropractic and massage appointments have improved it immensely.
    I think you may need a housecall! 😀

  2. sunny

    August 16, 2007

    Debra — offer accepted! 🙂

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