What I’m Learning: Embracing Resistance
I posted an observation on FB this morning by Cheryl Richardson. It’s about embracing resistance and it occurs to me that I’ve been doing this for the last few months. I’ve been learning how to relax and play. It may sound ridiculous, but I was never really sure how to do that. Life was always about work and production and if you weren’t actively DOING something significant, you certainly were supposed to be thinking about it. Rest and play were REWARDS for getting things done.
Maybe I hit a wall once too often, or maybe I’m just older now, but my higher self finally said “NO!” in a way that I couldn’t ignore. It began a few months ago when I was reading a book, and saying to myself, “I’ll just read a chapter and then I’ll go back to work.” And then the message came through loud and clear: “No,” it said. “Enjoy the book for its own sake. Be present instead of AWOL.”
I actually looked around me. “Who said that?” I thought. “What a concept!” For some reason I listened, and continued to read for the next month and the next and next – without guilt, without regret. That is not to say that I never worked; but rather I played first – I ate dessert before dinner. I can’t tell you how strange this felt, but my sense of flow felt the “rightness” of this approach.
In retrospect, I can now see that I was resisting “something” but rather than fight it and feel frustrated and cranky, I chose to embrace the resistance and do what felt good. And I read and played myself right into the next phase of my evolution.
I woke up this morning and thought, “Son of a gun. I’m ready.”
And here I am. Ready to pick up where “Flow Formula” left off. I’ve made the shift, and I don’t even have to give up playing, in the process! I guess I’ve learned how balance intrinsically feels and I have a much better sense of when to push and when to let go for a while (even if “a while” seems longer than expected.)
Once again, it’s all about trust. I didn’t have any answers but I flowed with what was happening and then popped out the other end. Alice in Wonderland maybe?
I don’t know anything except that the learning continues…